neohin

It has been almost 3-4 years since i left DA for good.  My life hasn't changed that much but i had some trouble to endure. Some things have happened- some not so grand as i would have liked-

First of all i graduated from Fashion Design/ Garment Elaboration only to find myself unemployed for 2 years. Still living with my parents and unable to find a decent job because a) the degree i chose b)my age c) my appearance d) no jobs available.

I ended up very depressed. I felt so lonely and like a loser. All my inspiration and will to draw and write was gone and for 2 years i just stared at the screen unable to finish a single drawing- i felt so bad with myself. I hated everything, even my drawing style and my silly stories and characters.

I also had to cope with a mild depression due to the lack of a romantic partner-then i realized that maybe i wasn't wrong. Maybe i wasn't the cold, ugly person i thought i was! I discovered the terms "asexual-aromantic-autochorissexual" as orientations and found out there were many people like me who were initially forced to believe all happy and healthy persons longed for sex and cheesy phrases but weren't broken- WOW! I was not alone!

Then i became a Tumblr addict: scrolling the page down with no will to do anything else. For the first time i realized i had no life nor a bright future waiting for me. Sure, i did some sketches now and then but there was no passion in drawing nor coloring. I began dwelling in food porn and somehow trying to recreate some recipes i saw on the site.

I realized i enjoyed cooking. It felt nice to cut-split-chop-wash things. I felt happy trying new stuff and taking photos of it (it was much like when i was a bentoist wannabe!)

So i enrolled in a technical cuisine degree. This year i hopefully will become a chef and get a job. Then i will try to fix my life.

I feel a bit more confident now. I logged in to clean my DA but realized that my drawings-even if not perfect- weren't as horrid as i remembered. Now i feel the urge to create again.  

It feels great.

Hi!
As the title says i've got a Tumblr account too n.n
I'll be posting stuff on both sites, but i'd be soooo happy if we become friends on that site as well~

neohin.tumblr.com  for stuff i do/drawings
onlyneohin.tumblr.com for randomness

See you there!

I really deserve to be locked away and squished with a giant rock.
I've been so busy with work and my internet is so slow/lousy i haven't had the chance to contact you or send you updates.

I'll re-start my online activities tomorrow. Please forgive meeee!!

ZOMGZOMGZOMGZOMG

I'm sure it has a week or so in stores till now but i first saw it back home yesterday or so.
ME.WANTS.SO.BAD rly people

But since it is a environmentalist movie and it doesn't seems proper to go and buy a sparkling new dvd/blu-ray and since i am pretty much a money-saving obsessed ranter   i am just waiting a couple of weeks more for someone richer than me and dumber than me to toss it into the used sale pile at blockbuster.

I can smell a hignly anticipated movie night with pancakes instead of popcorn Ohhhh yeshhhhhh

All i can say is WOW talk about dense games ._.

I don't even like football that much, but as a footbal frenzy country i was kinda excited last...wednesday i think?, when Mexico managed to get to the finals winning against Japan. Still many of us were half-hearted already because Brazil basically beats the crap out of us in football almost everytime. And as friendly neighbors we are, we just knew playing against Brazil is basically committing suicide.

And.we.won. <_< i can't still believe it.

LOL my Sombreroshipping sense is just tingling so much XD i can imagine something like:

-Day before-
José: If Mexico ganha i'll pay dinner. Because obiamnte, it won't win *evil look* =u=
Panchito: Ah si?! if Brazil wins i'll let you be on top r_'r
José:...eh...are you sure?
Donald : What is so important about one medal? *the US has tons so yeah* let me hear the tv already.